Night and Day

0106hrs..
I am suddenly overwhelmed by this desire to go back to sch days. As in days when I was still wearing a uniform.

Today I had to go back to sch for a project meeting. It is (was) a Sunday btw. and it totally sucks that my weekend is gone now. I didn't even do ANYTHING at all this weekend. Its so sad that nobody even cares.

Anyway, back to my point about my project. Its a presentation on why girls want to grow up faster. Like why young girls always prefer to appear and behave older then they are. We found that their ideal age is average 18.

My group mate asked me today what my ideal age is. And I said 20, which is like my current age. But now thinking about it, I feel that the ideal age is to be 18. I just miss those days when I was still 18, when all my friends were still 18.

There was never the question of, "What are you going to do after you graduate?". It was always like, "How are u going to kill all that time you have during the hols?" There won't be anymore hols. But well, either way, the answer is always, "I dunno."

I do miss being 18. I miss all the things i did when i was 18. I miss the routine life i had. The certainty and knowledge that tmr morning i will wake up and everything will be just like the day before.

When i was 18 I prob hated such a life. I remember complaining about doing the same things day in and out. Wake up, study, train, go home, study, watch tv, sleep. repeat. So ironic that now it actually seem rather appealing.

And life at 20 is suppose to be considered like the peak of our youth??? Yet I feel like I am wasting my life away.