Night and Day

1323hrs..
finals yesterday had been a day of mixed emotions.
tears of disappointment and joy.
far too many to be named.

this is not going to be a "thank you" entry since half the people i am grateful to prob doesnt read my blog.i will leave that for the "speech" in a few week's time.

this Nationals i saw the caring and supportive side of everyone on the team. i prob received more handshakes, pats on the back, "all the best"s, hugs and the biggest group hug in the past three days than i ever would in my entire life.
i can hardly say this but for once i actually have to totally agree with tim that we were going to race for cher and that the senior team had made an impact on the whole team. disgusting as he may be (MAYBE not anymore), he proved to me that there is also a nicer side to him. same goes to the other J2 guys, for all the reassurance and support.maybe i do love them.haha
and of course LIX!*poke* we are practically like T1 partners.love her for all the times she was there when i get put down by cher, and all the other funnier times."hur hur" i do believe in armpit hormones now. =)
that group hug i got from the girls team after my last race yesterday.maybe it was not just the girls.i dont remember, i couldnt see clearly either.i only remembered being surrounded tightly by a group of people. im sorry if i gave anybody a shock.
i even got a hug from cher yesterday. i wouldnt have gone so far if not for him.i really cant thank him enough. being able to get his recognition after two years means a whole lot to me.
oh man..i totally love the team.
in less than 7 minutes, canoeing had became part of my history.sigh.
the season is over, and its most prob the last season for me. no more trainings.no more..
although i've been expecting it, it still came as a shock to me. its just too fast.

but to those who do visit my blog, thank you, truly, for the support, "good luck's", "all the way's" and "god speed's" in these three days.